“My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who I am and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.” -Anais Nin

We look at the world, the news, other people’s lives and we are conditioned to fix and save everything. I have been guilty of wanting to fix things and save people. We see the world as hopeless and we are conditioned to fix or save it. The news has your emotions all over the place, showing all the ugly and negative parts of the world. The news tries to keep us functioning on a low vibration. The media tries to control our energy with negativity. We soon lose focus on the positive.

I choose to see beauty, goodness, and live on a high vibration.  The world (earth) is a living spirit; it knows how to heal itself. The universe created everything. The ants have a purpose, the birds have a purpose, every living thing on this planet has a purpose. Being in nature is breathtaking. All these years I ignored the most beautiful art ever that was right in front of me. I now take time out to observe and absorb the nature around me.  The universe is truly magical if you choose to see it.

I had to learn to stop interfering in other people’s lives, trying to help everyone, trying to solve other people’s problems. I took a step back and began to observe and respect nature. I always tell my life partner: “You will figure it out, the answer will come.”

When I try to stop things from happening or try to fix everything, I disrupt the natural flow of life and go against nature. I have learned to apologize to nature. I have chosen to be spiritually led to help others. To be in flow with nature is to be spiritually led to help others.  Being in the flow of life feels good to me. I no longer control things or go against things. For example, I wanted to help my aunt, but she wanted to control my help. At that moment, I let go of helping her. I had to understand the difference between my needs and wants. I needed to let go of wanting to help her and I did. I did not need to help her; I wanted to. I am free and happy with my decision.

I believe it’s good to accept life as it is: the good, bad and ugly. It’s important to allow nature to unfold naturally. Acceptance is hard because we want to control things and make them happen a certain way. We even suffer because we refuse to let nature take its course.

Life is full of lessons. We came here to learn. Sometimes we interfere with other people’s life lessons. We save people prematurely and get upset because they didn’t learn their lesson. Rock bottom saves lives. When I hit rock bottom, I saved myself because nobody could save me but me. We have to allow people to save themselves and endure their lessons. In the end, lessons bring blessings. One time, the tree outside my house had a chain wrapped around it. I wanted to remove the chain from around the tree. But I saw the chain was embedded deep inside the tree’s trunk, and the tree had grown with the chain inside it. Removing the chain would hurt the tree. I stepped back and changed my outlook. The tree was teaching me a lesson, whispering, “As I am.”

Please don’t feel obligated or feel rushed to help others because this is not the way of nature. We have to be patient and have discernment in helping others. Sometimes God will not allow us to intervene and save others. We may watch them suffer through storms and the only thing we can do is to pray for them and that is it. While it is painful to watch loved ones suffer, they may never learn their lesson if we interfere.  Everyone has to take their own tests of life. The sad part is some people may never learn. Our job is to simply be a light for others. The best way to save the world is to save yourself. Save yourself and you save the world.

I am learning to be a good gardener; I plant my seeds and water them with affirmation. Is this easy? Hell no. But it’s freeing, lol. I follow my inner path, which requires me to feel. I trust in the divine time, which requires patience, strong belief, and hard work.

Life will test you to see if you really want it. For instance, I wanted to travel in February 2021, but a deal I was working on did not close in time for me to travel. I said delayed, not denied. I did not allow obstacles to uproot my garden. I stayed firm in what I wanted and then a thought came up: travel on your birthday. And I said yes. Divine timing is real and I am so happy to be in flow with the divine.

In my previous post, “War with myself,” I talked about being at war with the body. Dieting never worked for me. I knew I had to take the spiritual path of having a healthy mind, body and soul. I watched everyone on social media get ready for a summer body. I jumped on it and my spirit said, “As I am,” in 2021. Instead of hating my gut, I love it. Instead of criticizing my back rolls, I smile at them. Instead of thinking I have to have a flat stomach to wear a two-piece, I tell myself, “As I am.”

I struggled with my body. I struggled with being a certain size and living up to society’s view of what my body should look like. The fact of the matter is that I am healthy and I should rejoice in that instead of trying to force my body to change or be a certain size. We forget that as we age, our body changes. I had two kids. My body is not the same. I love my body instead of hating it. I have gone within and released my excessive weight instead of trying to fight my fat physically.

I know my eating habit is emotional. I am on the journey of observing myself and being aware of my eating habits. I don’t deny myself things but understand the importance of moderation. I ask myself this question: “Do I have to eat five rolls to be satisfied?” I can eat a few and be good. I know how I want my body to feel and I stay in tune with that feeling.

At first, I was just eating without being aware. Now I am aware of my eating habits instead of trying to control them. I check in with myself as I am eating to see if the food is helping me or hurting me. I used to eat mindlessly, not knowing I could be harming myself. Now I know the body talks to you and I am now listening. I’m aware of the subtle energies of my body. I am happy to say I have been maintaining my weight. I’m no longer in a rush to lose weight, just to gain it back. I see all these extreme workouts and I’m like, I can start doing these things but I can’t maintain them, lol.

I want to get back to the natural rhythm of my body. I look at nature and the animals and they ain’t doing these extreme workouts, but they ain’t overeating either, lol. Being on this spiritual path, I choose to be disciplined and honor my body. I still enjoy working out to keep the energy and blood flowing in my body.

Sometimes the world will make you feel like you need to change to be accepted. Sometimes it will make you feel you are not good enough unless you change. I had to learn I am wired to be who I am. I honor who I am. My flaws and imperfection are parts of my beauty. I am super grateful to have a unique blueprint. I rock with my “as I am” mantra.

I encourage you to accept yourself. Accept all of you and love all of you. You are the world and we love the way you shine.  I love rocking with people that are true to themselves. It’s a beautiful boldness I have always admired. I accept people as they are. It’s so beautiful watching nature unfold. Total strangers tend to tell me their life stories and I listen with an open heart. I learned people don’t need your advice; they just want you to listen.

“As I am” is truly a superpower; it is magical. The mantra is a testament to me: that I am good enough. Being grounded in who I am is a powerful place to be. The trees unapologetically say, “As I am.” I am not trying to save the world. I only wish to be grounded and planted like a tree.

We all came here to learn lessons, experience life, and be authentic. We are not meant to be robots of society. I understand the human journey is complex; we must let our journeys begin from within.  It’s time to unlearn programs and belief patterns as well as develop a willingness to grow.

Are you living as you are, or are you suffering by living for other people?

I am committed to my spiritual journey of forever evolving mentally, physically, and spiritually. I look forward to hearing from you, talking to you, connecting with you, and staying enlightened with you.

#befree #bealight #loveandlight Denetria Brijel

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