As a little girl, I was often in my own world. My imagination was on fleek and my parents did not know how to handle my spiritual gifts. My family made fun of me for having imaginary friends as a child. My childhood consisted of me talking to my imaginary family and playing with my imaginary friends. I had the best time with them. I still remember the names of my imaginary family:  Little Mom, Little Daddy, Little Sister, and Little Brother.

I would be in my own world so much that when my parents called me I would not respond. They took me to the doctor to get my ears checked, but the doctor said my ears were fine. After that, my parents started disciplining me, and I responded by shutting off my inner world, becoming distant from it. My spirit within became dormant, and I became lost living in the outside world.  I went through life, listening to the dogma of my parents, others, and religion. I would often find peace in my own room in the house, dreaming about the life I wanted.

Whenever I go out in the world, I got hit mentally and physically.  I had no clue then about grounding and protecting my energy. I didn’t understand the power behind my dreams and vision. And the more logic I used in my day-to-day, the further I kept getting from my dream.

I found some peace going to church, fasting, connecting with God the religious way. After high school, I would still go to church when I did not have to work. I was searching for my truth within the church, but my thirst wasn’t quenched. I grew up Pentecostal but did not care for some of the beliefs. Growing up I watched my mom stop wearing pants and I could not understand for the life of me what that had to do with the heart. Even as a child, I was often conflicted with the teachings of the church about sex before marriage, no gambling, no dating, and no to a lot of things I wanted to do. I was at war with my feelings and religion. After I got older, I decided on a non-denominational church as some of the beliefs aligned with mine; I could wear pants and be myself.

However, I still struggled with fear and beliefs in the church. I felt I was not living my truth. The conflict was between how I felt and what they wanted me to believe.  I felt like I kept apologizing for being who I truly was. I enjoyed smoking weed and felt more connected to my spirit doing so, but it was a sin in the church. I found myself being dragged to church and being pushed against how I felt because, in the world’s eye, you better go to church or you go to hell.

I became more judgmental in the church. I felt like I was judging non-churchgoers and this vibration kept me in the lower state of being. I continued attending church to find my truth and freedom, determined to find my spiritual awakening. But after reading The Science of Black Male and Female Sex by T.C Carrier, I woke up and never went back to church. I am forever grateful to my life partner (twin flame) for giving me this book, which enlightened me on my spiritual path.

Today, I am living my truth and I am free. I no longer want to be defined by one religion. I went through a dark period, feeling misled by religion all my life. I had to heal and forgive and not have anger with no one. Of course, I respect diverse religious beliefs and understand that everyone has a right to believe what feels right in their soul. I believe religion and church served a purpose and season in my life. My mother still goes to church. I respect it and I have friends that have different beliefs from me. I am like the only free soul around my family and friends, but I respect everyone with love and kindness. I am just speaking my truth about religion and my spiritual awakening.

Surely, I believe we all can create our own experience in life, and rightfully so you should have this freedom within you to live as your soul desires. I believe we all came here for something different and nobody should be judged. Light or dark, it all has a purpose in life. I found my truth in an unlikely source. I explored my inner world, unaware of the infinite possibilities within because I allowed religion and the outside world to tell me who I should be instead of me finding it within and creating it for myself.

I feel a higher power even writing this blog post. I am amazed at my own writing as I pour my soul out. I enjoy reading and writing; it is as if the spirit is speaking with me through this process. As I write, I become more connected to the source—the spirit flows freely within, burning my heart, allowing my fingers to fly and move like the waves of the ocean.

I write all my blog posts intuitively. I told my spirit that for me to start my blog I need to write ten blog posts. I have written more than ten within a week. I am amazed at how my spirit is coming alive. I can’t help but feel overjoyed. I hope everyone reading this blog feels joy and love within your heart and true happiness. I hope this blog post helps you as it is helping me at this moment.

So, I finally listened to my soul after all these years. It feels like I am flying and my heart feels so free.  Although listening to my intuition can be challenging, I cannot deny the joy and thrill of finally doing what I love—writing from my authentic spirit. I am committed to growing my intuition daily. 

I am currently taking classes on Meetup, meeting people all over the world, and enjoying my spiritual journey. It is not about getting it in one class. Nope, it’s a journey within itself that I love. I am learning how to read my natal chart and I am so intrigued to know me on a deeper level. I am fascinated to see the real blueprint of my life and understand myself on a scientific level. I love all aspects of spirituality—astrology, reiki, psychic, tarot card reading, sixth sense, the law of attraction, intuition, meditation, yoga, etc. I can’t name it all, but I am exploring like crazy, and being around like-minded people only helps me to grow. For a girl who was mocked for being spiritually inclined, I have come a long way.

I am committed to my spiritual journey of forever evolving mentally, physically, and spiritually. I look forward to hearing from you, talking to you, connecting with you, and standing enlightened with you.

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Denetria Brijel

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